I often find it ironic and very sad that I'm being paid to write and edit stuff for a living, but when it's my turn to do that for myself, I suck at it. :)
Which, to be honest, is getting stale. I'm slowly entering that part of my personal cycle??, where once again color and light and all cute things excite me. Dusty/pastel linen and cotton and viscose garments + ceramics are my obsession du jour, and I wish I had the time and energy to make them for myself.
This hot and sticky weather makes me miss Kenny more (and Macy, too, who's now in Canada). We used to swim in the city's public pool almost every week during summer. Then afterwards binge on junk food. I don't remember how we funded those spontaneous moments (maybe it helped that we had Lucky Me! pancit canton ready for the taking c/o my mother's and Macy's mother's sari-sari stores; or that Briane was so easily bullied into buying 1.5L Coke). You'd think we'd have done this more often by now, but it's only gotten more difficult to align our schedules. #Adulthood
I miss my darling bear terribly, too. Not that we're in a long-distance relationship, mind you; we're pretty much joined at the hip. It's just that we've both been so busy, it's become quite a challenge to be the best partners for each other lately. When one of us is having a bad day and wants to rant, the other might be too tired to function or too stressed out with her own problems to take care of the other. On the bright side, I'm slightly grateful that our stress levels sort of match – and we're self-aware enough to recognize and try to work around this. Otherwise, our wavelengths would be so far off. Also! Weeeee! This Holy Week and the week after that, we've made plans to s l e e p, pray, do some self-care, and travel up north just to get our mind off things. I'm super excited!
~I've been thinking a lot lately.~ You know, about where and how I want to lead my life...soon. It has actually taken up considerable time, which is a good thing because I never want to be that person who doesn't question her status quo...
And I'm feeling good about where I'm headed – or, at least, the fact that I'm enthusiastic and being creative for myself again is something that gives me life. There are still so many things I want to do, and now that I have the resources to do them, I don't have any excuse to delay. D is a blessing to me 'cause she's a woman of action, and she has her plans too that I'm only happy and excited to realize with her. Frankly, I wrote this post to procrastinate and I am a stressed cow (like all of us right before a long weekend), but I wanted to just write to remind myself that things are going great, though they may not always be too obvious to see. :)